in a daze

If shame had a face
I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes?
Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this?
Well here we go, now, one more time...

'Cause I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low
I could get down to the ground
And I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I have
Tried to be this

When will this end?
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keeps spinning around
I know that it won't stop
'Til I stand down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong, now, one more time...

'Cause I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low
I could get down to the ground
And I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I have
Tried to be this

When will this end?
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keeps spinning around
I know that it won't stop
'Til I stand down from this sick cycle carousel

This is a sick cycle, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah

When will this end?
It goes on and on
Over and over and then over again
Keeps spinning around
I know that it won't stop
'Til I stand down from this for good

eventful weekend. i dunno, its pretty weird knowing that like jen and rach and everyyyone (basically) are in europe now. i dont know what to expect this week but im excited :)
last night, i rededicated my life to God. well its not exactly that i was un-dedicated its just i felt like i was pulling back and i decided to come back and work at it again. i guess lately ive been really doubting God and his power to do something for me. i mean ive witnessed him do great things for others, i hear it, and everything, but ive never really experienced it. but i guess i realized, this past week has really sucked and maybe its not completely this, but i know that my not doing devotions definitely played a large part in it. ironically, todays sermon was about overcoming doubt and one of the things that i got from it is that doubt is necessarily bad for your faith, in fact, it can stimulate you to grow further into your faith. good doubt causes you to ask questions and causes you to rely on God for the answer. it is when you step back and try to make sense of a very complicated life. i hadnt lost confidence in God and i didnt give up from the long run, i just needed to make sure i wasnt leading a blind faith

retreat this weeek. so fast its a tad bit freaky. well im excited; i dont even know for what - theres not much to be excited about exactly but i guess just kicking back and spending some time with your friends definitely cant be bad

im finally starting to understand exhaustion. for all you troopers looking for work, word of advice, don't work a lot. its exhausting. work like 6 hours a week to learn and in the summer work more. that way you dont have to learn everything right now and get all the frustration and stress run you over.

anyone wanna come to mcdonalds with me to get a happy meal =) i wanna get "the dog"

posted by joanne - @ 5:54 pm