in a daze

9/06/2005

walking in cement

a little bit of your past will always stay with you, and you carry it with you for the rest of your life.
in ten years down, i'll still remember losing my favourite lion lunch container in jk, crying over my brand spanking new 'secret garden' book in grade 3 that was spoiled in the rain before i got to read any of it, or cops and robbers, cheesy math games, spamming tommy's yearbook with "GAY" before he left for three years, pouring sprite on josh and then him saying it was his fault when mr. saunders came out, or phoebe stealing all my water during high school, me stealing paper from rachel, josh randomly cussing, jens clicky shoes, etc etc.

which is why i went to felicia & samir's soccer games today. whitefield, some of the best and worst times of my unfulfilled life. i hate it but i still end up thinking back a lot, ew. haha such a love/hate thing going on. well anyways, took a few pictures of me, mtee, dk, and myko. and some of samir playing not really doing anything and couldnt get anyy pictures of leesha cuz she was too far on the other side of the stupid field. :) but yeahh..i only talked to her for three minutes but within those minutes its confirmed that although we havent talked for months, other than our brief msn talks, it's still the same. and TOMMYYY is back from nova scotia. after three years of ditching toronto. omgosh, its been so long, i forgot about the things we did with each other, like when you used to come to my church. everyones changed so much. talked to michaelC on the phone today, hahaha love him, he's so hilarious, honestly. alright, enough time down memory lane.

another year ahead. hmm, i have a feeling a lot of emotional pain is to come up, and i'm so afraid. it's like counting down to your doom.

posted by joanne - @ 10:27 pm