in a daze

10/13/2005

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my title has no significance whatsoever. (laughs)

you know, sometimes im so sick of trying so hard, and holding on and as much as i say i dont care anymore, i still do..i cant just let go of everything because its been so long, but i hate how i keep trying to measure up to everything like no matter what, i can never be good enough, never be equal. its always me like somewhere down there..have you ever been low?
well lookie what mc's random michael jackson songs can do:
u wanna show them that ur really not scared
ur playin with ur life
this aint no truth or dare
they'll kick and they'll beat you
and they'll tell u its fair
so beat it ..just beat it

but as depressing as i make it all sound, its really not that bad, things are changing...


anyways, i need to get back into basketball, just watching the game gets me excited now..haha its been a while since ive yelled out during a game..so sorry if i was annoying, "i get loud when im exciteed" hehehe what else, oh i need to brush up my math and my english. booourns, my english! how horrible i actually want to do well in english toos, oh well, math its to be expected but still, i just started getting used to the feeling of UNDERSTANDING. oh it was a good feeling -.-

anyways yall, oc is not on, and im PISSED, >:( grr i'm a gangster, straight up G. okay right, write me a bus letter y'all =)

posted by joanne - @ 7:07 pm