1/03/2006
"out on a limb"
aaaah screw it, my blogs have sounded more depressing than necessary lately, lets focus on the happyhappy :)je suis une optimiste! lol i disgust myself.
yeahhhh~ sick, i earned $40 with my auntie, teaching her how to use the computer; i realized, i'm a very patient person LOL
i wanna drive i wanna drive i wanna drive! now nowwww! hehe :)
alrrrright, i need to crack down on work (i say this every year....oh boyyyy)
i changed my future occupation goal again. either marketing or advertising, their similar..but not. i keep getting further and further from businesses to arts. dohhhh and i didnt even TAKE art 0:)
you know, 1989 seems like ages ago; i mean looking back at old pictures, look at what we were WEARING the quality of life, honestly it has changed a lot. its hard to believe nays in third year, graduating next, and to remember when he was like little and we were both so young and carefree; and then i think about me, how i've completely grown, and then i think about my parents, how much older theyve grown how much more stress theyve experienced *sighh, so this is lifee...its all in perspective...
"The drama, I know, will follow me. There's no stopping that. I've given up on trying to figure out if I attract it or seek it. Perhaps it's both."
- kristine sa.
wooord.
doh, okay tomorrows plans flopped but thats okay i need a study date anyways. :)
i need to clear out the donuts, apple pie, yogourt and bread that me and nathan bought
i still wanna watch pride and prejudice and then my movie appetite will be satisfied. :)
[edit - 1:24AM] finally went to z.o.d; the design of it is really nice actually, but the entire atmosphere when you walk into just SUCKS. like i felt like i was walking into those chinese yum cha places. aaand although the for gays were super nice, they were old and completely did not match the design of the restaurant. anddd they violated my pet peeve: washrooms that leave you feeling dirty. but other than thattt, it was good :)
you know whats irritating, those people who have really low confidence and say only what other people want them to say. or those little girls who dont say anything but just giggle in their plastic little way of those like bratz commercials or something. or those people that have so much to say but never say it because they're too shy or whatever. or those like little little girls, about the age of those that fit into the la senza girl clothing and they act all like posh and what not. like they flip their hair and cross their arms as they wait and lean against the wall with a look of disdain.oh gross, i wanna slap sense into them..okay that doesnt really have anything to do with low self-confidence, but i was on a roll. *shrugss*
yuppp, i know i dont seem like it cuz im constantly dissing myself but its true, i have enough selfconfidence to not care what the hell you think of me (smiles). anyways, i think i'm saying all this because i woke up feeling saucy (HA) or in profaner words, bitchy, and completely spazzed the heck out of the old lady and son (?) who were trying to take our table this morning during brunch. i was like yeah, we got connections so i dont care if you were there first and youre like twenty numbers ahead of us, we're more important which means you get to have the crappy squishy table, go find yourselves some connections dear TCHA. i'm so mean :( yeah whatever, dont pull me out of bed so i can eat really gross oily starchy foods with you, cause i'll be mean. cheerah.
.....i'm so mean! LOL whatever, freaks.
yeah well, that's today, we'll see what happens tomorrow :)
[edit - 3:28AM] "im like praying about it and stuff and then chris was like then WHY ARE YOU STILL WORRYING. i mean like thats true. if youre still trying to take control of the situation like where should i go and asking evryone and stuff then youre not really letting God take control right. =) good thing for me to think bout this year"
i wrote that exactly one year ago, and yet it's still true for me again this year.....
[edit - 5:16AM] i am so freakin' zoned out and yet i cannot get myself to sleep. if my mother were to wake up...i'd be very very screwed.
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