2/05/2006
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mmmm, it's one of those rare times when i use someone elses layouts..unfortunatelyyy, i chose a really hideous link colour to go with it but i'm too lazy to find something nicer mehh....
today, was pretty depressing for me. i just woke up very - melancholy
just a whole bunch of extra stuff in my head
but anyways!
at church, we had a guest speaker..(it's been a while) and then prayer meeting (it's been a while also) i just realized i havent really talked spiritually with them for such a long time. back then, we used to talk about every spiritual mound in front of us, big or small and we would get through it together...but it hasn't been like that for a while. it kinda ended...and in our own ways we've moved on from it, or found other ways to handle our problems...
but because of this..we've forgotten how much better it feels to just tell people who you know won't judge you, won't condemn you or label you, or offer advice, but rather just accept it and just pray. and sometimes, even find people who feels the same way...remember, 8ight qu8stions. how would i respond now? i kid you not, after praying today, really praying, i felt peace. like the gloom i'd been feeling all day...well, honestly, it didn't completely disappear, but it thinned, and i knew, it'd be okay...
truthfully, i've been so spiritually dehydrated i don't know how i survived everyday. i know lately i completely lived the analogy of trying to filling the God-shaped void with other forms of comfort...hmmmm...
ubuntu - we're part of something bigger...i just have to find out where i fit into it now...
the perfect analogy of my life is that is like some kind of very twisted carousel.
warning: don't come too close, i bite.
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